Nagging worry…

I’m a big believer in modern medicine. Mind you, I do think there are a lot of things we can do to improve our health and avoid having to be treated. On the whole, however, I’m grateful for all the treatment I’ve had over the years. As this includes stuff like a hip replacement for a condition that alternatives couldn’t have fixed, I hope you see my point.

But that doesn’t mean I’m always happy about having to be treated.

I’ll be having cataract surgery on one of my eyes early in 2021. I looked it up and there are probably ten million cataract surgeries a year worldwide. This is not something out of the ordinary. This is a procedure that’s well researched, as safe as any surgery can be, and the results are excellent.

So why am I worried?

Well, it’s not a huge worry. I trust my doctor and have, at my age, a lot of friends who’ve had it done. But it’s still surgery. It’s still my eye. And we will still be in the middle of a pandemic when it happens. Sigh.

Not sure if this guy is a great O.D., but I really enjoyed his explanation!

I’m looking for a good video on the surgery itself…not sure I actually want to watch it though. See that first image!

Omigosh II…

In which our protagonist attempts to resurrect Statrix for the umpteenth time.

It’s been quite a journey moving to Gcloud from my old host. It’s taken much longer than I expected and I may not be done yet. So far things have gone wrong at almost every turn but one; I had backups.

Yes, backups. That is something I learned long ago.

So yes, it’s been a struggle, admittedly a fun one, but a struggle.

  1. Decided to move.
  2. Created a new .org site and imported .com data to it.
  3. Destroyed old site.
    1. Oops.
  4. Then discovered that an update killed the new .org site.
    1. Oops.
  5. Changed tactics and created a new site with a prebuilt image.
  6. Perfect.
  7. Oops.
  8. The hardest part turns out to have been learning how to really use ssh keys. Once I had that in hand, I was off to the races.
  9. Where I lost several times.
  10. Turns out restore my backup on a new system sort of destroyed the new system..
    1. Oops.
  11. Finally figured I could auto-restore some bits, but the SQL’y bit needed to be moved by hand.

And, well, here we are.

Omigosh…

I did a ten minute mediation all about worrying. Should I have meditated about this longer? Was that too long?

Is this useful?

Actually that last bit is useful. Worry isn’t in itself a bad thing, it can motivate me to do the stuff I need to get done. But once I fall into the trap of mindless worry over things I simply can’t control, like the past and most of the future…bah…

Case in point. I’ve been nominated for a position that will be a considerable challenge. I’m not a shoo-in by any means. The chances are actually pretty slim that I’ll be selected and that’s really fine with me.

Today I had to fill out the resume that will form the basis for the selection. It’s short, and having been one of the people who has selected others for this post, short is good. I think I did any okay job filling it out. At least I was truthful.

So here’s the thing. I will not know anything about this until April. Nothing. Not a word. Nada.

At that time I will either be selected or it will go to someone else more qualified.

But I’ve now got some five months to worry about whether I’ll get the position or not. What it will mean if I do. What it will mean if I don’t. How will I feel if…

Is this useful?

Nope, not a bit. The time for any worry has passed with my turning in the resume. I suppose it was somewhat useful to worry a bit and fret over what to put on the resume, but now? Not useful.

It may be there a couple of things I should do to prepare in case I’m selected. Updating my passport seems in order, not that we are going anywhere soon. But I need to do that anyway, so why worry? Just do it.

See what I mean? Not really useful.

I really have to thank Joseph Goldstein for the idea of checking on the usefulness of my worry. Not that he told me about this directly; I got it secondhand from my meditation app.

The meditation was good. I’m not free from worry. But for how long? When will it come back? What will I worry about next? Argh! All for now!

Statrix is dead, long live Statrix!

Today I decided to remove www.statrix.com from the mix. Welcome to www.statrix.org. Here’s the thing. I was paying too much. Now don’t get me wrong, the hosting service I was on was fine and not overpriced for a site that actually gets used. I wasn’t using the site often enough to justify spending much of anything. So…not my host’s fault.

The other thing is that, I wanted to try something new. At heart, I think I’d rather play with a blog than write on one.

So where am I now?

I’m on the Google Cloud, running a self-hosted WordPress site. Underneath I’ve got Ubuntu 20 LTS running. Is this the best possible solution? Who knows? Is there really a best solution.

Now I’ve got to move a mailing list on another domain to something cheaper as well. Yes, it on my current host and…well…if I’m stepping away to because I’m not blogging often, then I really, really don’t want to pay all that money for one mailing list of 20 folks.

Aloha!

Posting by Email from the Exotic Reaches of my Living Room!

Today has been one of those days in which I never made it outside. COVID-19 has kept me glued to my computer in ways I find it hard to fathom. I work from home these days which is somewhat the norm for tech workers these days. But that same tech skill has, to some degree, kept me tied to the terminal as a lot of the rest of my life has migrated there was well.

Meditation comes to mind. Now it’s true that I can meditate without the assistance of any gadgets and do so often. But…the sanghas I used to sit at are now online. So today, for instance, instead of bicycling several miles to the temple one of the groups I sit at meets, I was online.

I haven’t really kept a log of all the places I attended physically but now visit online, but I’m thinking I should.

And, as you can imagine, that’s a project I’ll probably do…online.

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That’s it for now!

Moving from my host?

I’m not sure about this, but it may be time to move. I’ve come to realize that I’m just spending too much money on a blog I don’t keep up. Yeah, it’s not really that much, but it does add up when you’ve got years of being too busy to keep it up, but are too vain to let go.

So what to do? Go cheap. Stay vain.

I’m trying out the Google Cloud solution. If it all works out, I’ll simply live at statrix.org instead of statrix.com. I’ve managed to port over all the content of the blog, at least as far as I can tell. I’m not really trying to duplicate it bit by bit and that save a lot of work.

The biggest problems I think I’m going to have are in moving the files that aren’t really part of my blog, but that I don’t want to lose. I’m not sure I have enough space here. I’m sure I can find a solution but…well…once it gets ups up to $10 a month I’m not saving anything won’t have support.

That’s the goal then…keep the cost down, keep the files available, have some fun managing the system.

The other issue is the mailman mailing list I have. I don’t really want to lose that functionality, but I’m not sure which approach to use to move it over here at this point. We’ll see.

That’s it for the moment…Google cloud, what can you do for me?

Working from home…

I’ve been working from home for a while now, right after the first weekend in March as a matter of fact. I was on the mainland for a conference that weekend and, because I was in contact with so many folks, I sequestered myself at home with the permission of my employer.

I am profoundly grateful that I’m still employed and am able to work from home in world where that is truly a luxury. Yes it can be a little trying, but only a little, and absolutely nothing like what a lot of my friends are going through; some on the frontlines in health, and yes, retail, and others now on the unemployment line. So no, I’m good.

But here’s the thing I’ve been finding. Somehow it seems I’m busier than ever. I’ve been trying to puzzle it out and some of it makes sense.

The first thing that comes to mind is this. At my workplace I have two monitors. I generally put whatever I’m referencing on one side and whatever I’m actually doing on the other. I have pretty big monitor at home, but not quite big enough to put both screens of material up. So I find myself switching between virtual screens. It’s a tiny little problem, but it does add a few seconds swapping screens and finding myself. Do that enough times and hour and you’ve added a couple of minutes to the hour. Do that for eight yours a day, and you’ve added to your day.

I know, a luxury problem, but it’s still a thing. A tiny thing.

The next big time suck is that talking to people takes longer. At work we can meeting person, go over a document together, and voila, problem solved. Now we have to negotiate an electronic communication, share screens, and…well…there you go. It just takes longer.

My work isn’t any harder and I’m pretty good at what I do, but I am slowed down just a bit by this and that and now, after a few months of this, I’m beginning to notice.

Having said all that, I’m not complaining and I hope this post isn’t interpreted as that. I’m happy to have my own fridge just behind me, a real espresso machine as well, and the ability to do what so many other are doing, dress shirt, sloppy shorts.

And that leads me to something I learned at the end of week. Our company is opening back up and bringing back some workers. There’s a schedule of folks who should be reporting to work at the office. We are also doing a lot to reduce the risk of working in close quarters by strictly limiting how close we can be to each other. That means a lot of our desks are going to be unused for now. Further, some workers will be coming in for some things, and working at home for other things. When they come in, they won’t have an assigned desk, they’ll use a workstation (with proper disinfecting) used as needed.

I’ve been given my designation for returning and it was this:

EVENTUALLY. PLEASE TAKE YOUR STUFF HOME.

I have never once packed up my stuff at an office and taken it home without also losing my job. It’s first. I’m one of those people who has been designated as necessary to operations, but not needed to be physically present.

Yes, working from home has a few idiosyncrasies, but I am truly, truly grateful that I can work from home until, well, eventually arrives.

I’m a happy guy. And yes, I do realize just how lucky I am to be in the position I am during this, or any other, time.

Mahalo.

BTW – That comic is from the Invisible Bread web comic. Check ’em out.

No cycling today…and yet somehow I'm not a hot mess…

It was one of those days; busy. It’s after 6:00 PM here in Honolulu and, while there’s still some daylight, I managed not to go for a ride today. It’s okay though, I rode both Saturday and Sunday, so I’m not feeling too guilty.
Instead, after work, I attended a great regular online meditation group. I’m not usually one to tout this teacher or that one, but in this case, I’ll make an exception and tout both this one and that one.
Devon and Craig Hase are a couple, and a couple of great meditation leaders, both individually and as a team. I met Craig earlier this year in early January when he was visiting Honolulu. He sat with us at the Aloha Sangha and led a half-day workshop I attended. I’ve kept in touch and he has become one of my mentors in my own practice.
Well, one thing led to another and soon COVID-19 was upon us. Devon and Craig’s book came out, and their book tour was canceled. I’d actually hoped to catch up to them in person in Colorado in June, but alas, that’s not happening.
In any case, I spent an hour after work sitting with their Monday online sangha and, prime biking time though it was, am probably better for it. Tomorrow look’s good bike-wise, but I won’t be foregoing meditation either.
But what’s that hot mess thing you ask? Well, Devon and Craig’s book, “How Not To Be a Hot Mess,” is why. It’s a really accessible and knowledgeable book on, um, not being a mess, hot or otherwise. Just go read it, I promise you won’t be disappointed.
 
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Still riding…on a lovely cool morning…

Mind you, when I say cool, I mean “Hawaii cool,” not cold. I was a busy guy this morning, meeting with friends on Zoom way too early in the morning, then my ride. I was able to do a nice shorter route, but one with plenty of hills; by which I mean not Iowa type hills – endless that is.
No, I started with a nice ride around Diamond Head, then off to the back of Palolo Valley.


 
As you can see, there were some hills, but nothing hard. I’m working up to longer rides, and more hills. Right now, I’m mostly just getting my saddle toughened up and enjoying being on my bike again.
The rest of my day was busy too…no nap!
I cleaned up, of course, but then had to attend a training session for some volunteers for an organization to which I belong.
Later in the afternoon, I headed over to the office. Or, more precisely, I went to the roof of the building in which I work. We have an employee garden up there and weekend afternoons are the days I get to water the entire garden and tend my little patch.
I’m only growing a few things as I only have a couple of square feet. I’ve got mamaki, eggplant, Chinese parsley, and, nothing. I had some Chinese cabbage, but they were attacked by something and looked horrid today; I pulled it.
But the eggplant! Yum. I had two ready to go, all nice and shiny. So after finishing the garden chores I headed home and cooked them up. I’m not a recipe guy, I just go for it. This time I just fried up little circles of eggplant after dipping them in an egg, cream mixture, and dusting them with almond flour. The secret today (it changes), was a hint of cinnamon. Yep.
Anyway, the eggplants were delicious.
I’ve got to figure out how to dry out the mamaki leaves for tea, that’ll come next after say…
Aloha!
 

Still training…for 2021

I’ve come to a decision regarding RAGBRAI 2020. I have decided…wait…what’s that? Ah…em…I guess I don’t need to make a decision. As it turns out, there will be no RAGBRAI 2020.
2021 here I come.
As long time readers of this blog may know, at least I hope I know, I love RAGBRAI. I also ride with the Pork Belly Ventures folks (Aloha to Tammy and Pete). I love PBV as well. They are the reason I started riding RABRAI (long story) and I wish them the best in this trying time.
So what’s up?
Both RAGBRA and PBV have given me the option of rolling my 2020 registrations and fees over to 2021. I could receive a refund, but honestly, I paid for this stuff so long ago (read months), that I’m not going to miss the money. In fact, I’d feel terrible taking a refund, at least from PBV.
Next year the route for RAGBRAI will remain the same. Yes! Love that last day. Next year I’ll be in better shape than this year because, unless I break another foot, I’ll have started my training on time. Indeed, I’ve started. I hope to keep up a good amount of riding from now to July 2021.
Aloha!